I’ve learned guys can never be trusted. When they say they love you, they don’t mean it. Maybe they just think they do or convince themselves to. But when they finally realize that they don’t, it’s already too late. When they say let’s just be friends, he doesn’t mean it. He’ll just dump your ass and forget about you like nothing happened. I hate myself for trusting him as much as I did.
*sigh* I already expected this was gonna happen since we haven’t been talking for like a month now. But I didn’t think it would happen so sudden. Even in the beginning of the relationship, I told myself to prepare for the break up if this ends up being a long term thing. I guess I got too attached.
Even worse is that this is probably one of the worst kinds of break up. There was really nothing wrong between us. We were perfectly fine. But, in an instant, we’re not together anymore. I’ve just assumed that he doesn’t like me anymore and that he likes someone else now. I know I’m gonna have to move on. But I think the part that I can’t accept is all of the time we spent together…. Was it all a waste? All of the gifts? All of the flirting exchanged? I’m really gonna miss it.
So what…? After all of that, do I have to go around and hang with our friends and pretend nothing happened between us. How am I suppose to do that? How am I suppose to pretend nothing happened between us. What about all of the stuff you gave me? The necklace you gave me for my birthday that I wore everyday since? The note that told me you loved me?
I’m really gonna miss you, our time together, our “love”. My first….
Thanks to you, I stayed up til 1am doing your fuckin homework. I didn’t even study for any of the tests I have tomorrow. Just because some one was being a total jackass, it doesn’t give you the right to punish all of us. If I fail my tests, I blame you. You’re such an inconsiderate bitter old man. I can see through your “mean, strict” facade. I hope you die from a heart attack soon.